I'm All alone

Full of diffrent emotions

Poetry by Alyssa Mercede Franco

Authors Note

These quotes have started all the way from october 2014 - Please tell me what you think all of these quotes come from the heart

October 31 2014

The day you take candy from strangers the day the demons come out and play, The witches come out to take little girls and boys. The day Satan come out and play ! what day is this ? it is called HALLOWEEN !

November 1st 2014

the dark is there when i need it most ,the dark always is here for me the dark has always kept me safe from my thoughts, the dark is my only friend

november 5 2014

That one person will be able to knock down my walls that is holding my aching heart. I am so ashamed of what i have become and what i have hidden from my friends and family . it's sickening to see what I  have become. To hide everything and show the lie that isn’t me . I am the only one who now that it is a lie. it hurts to show the lie to everyone i want to cry out . but who will hear me?

November 15 2014 12 am

“my head says to swim but my heart says to drown”

november 15 2014 1 am

“ my heart says to swim but my head says to drown “

November 26 2014

My grandma ask the same things every year “ why don't you eat dear aren't  you hungry ?“ I really don't  like to eat because i get made fun of my weight everyday that i keep living in this world i want to be pretty like the other girls  everyone says that i’m pretty but i’m  not i get lied to a lot it hurts but in the end i will be pretty I replied with a smile “i’m just not hungry grandma”  

December 10 2014

I have these walls for a reason . because if i show myself my real self i be more of a freak show than i am now. do i cry-out? do i let it sink down at the bottom of my heart ? I  don't know what i do without my walls , but i'm  just a freak who cares what i think anyways.

December 20 2014

please don’t get too close to me i'm made of porcelain . if you  say the wrong things i might break . I’m a little old chyna doll they set on the wall you want to play with her and touch her then you dropped me and i broke into pieces and never got put back together again.

December 28 2014

If you take away my music you take away my life

December 29  2014 ( my birthday)

Its close to New years and i hear the same old thing … I can't come over but sorry wish i could …. when i invite you all you say you come then make other plans can i have a birthday for me for once just a surprise party to make me happy

Author's note: happy new years folks and sorry to say that my quotes made you sad but Please don't be sad for me because i deserve everything i ever got the pain and rejection

January 10 2015

Will it ever go away? The pain of rejection? loneliness?

All i want to hear from you i saying you will never leave and stay by my side … but i know you will leave me sooner or later

January 19 2015

Bruises will go away over time

and it will be forgotten but your words leave scars that will last a lifetime .

January 29 2015

I may not be pretty i may not be smart you don't know what i’ve been through  so please just let me be  

January 30 2015

When someone says they are truly sorry are they actually sorry . when someone says sorry to me i usually don't believe them because they just keep hurting me again

february 10 2015

dont ever say goodbye, say see you later because goodbye means forever

february 14 2015

Please let me in those walls of yours i will love you if you let me in .

february 28 2015

Many people say my heart is pure is that really true? my heart is somewhere cold it's not pure it's hidden and locked with chains and cinder block walls   but one day my heart will be pure again

March 10 2015

Does death scare you?

ME : no it doesn't because death has taken all the ones i love .

march 15 2015

the only reason i sing is for my great grandfather because he says the birds stop to hear me sing.

March 20 2015

I trusted you with me , i loved you and i hated you and most of all i really cared about you but you dropped me and broke me

March 25 2015

I love you even if you keep hurting me i probably deserved it but i will always keep loving you

April 5 2015

I am lost without you

i want you to be near

i try so hard

but then  you

go and leave

again

April 15 2015

your words cut me more than blades ever could:

Fatty

loser

freak

no one loves you

whale

drink bleach

stop being so ugly B*tch

April 20 2015

I am just a voodoo doll poke my eyes out please so I can finally cry

April 25 2015

i wish i was good enough for you

that i could hear you say “ you're good enough for me” but then again no one would ever wanna be friends like a monster like me

April 30 2015

i always thought i was good enough for you and it made me feel so special

but then you found somebody else

may 25 2015

if you could read my mind you cry

your fat

you're ugly

no one likes you

your friends hate you

i wanna die

May 30 2015

I had a smile on my face and tears coming down my face and whispered i can't do this anymore

Author's note : I took a break over the summer didn't start writing until the beginning of school of this year because of reasons you probably dont care or dont wanna know

August 20 2015

I wonder where the land  

August 31 2015

All I wanted from you was to care for me that's all i wanted but then you left me so i am all alone in the dark again

September 1 2015

I woke saw you were gone again you laughed in my face said that it was just a dream the harder i try not to cry i want it to go away all the happy memories i shared  with you told me it was just a dream I know it wasn’t a dream why do you act like it was !!

I woke up last night and thought about you

i thought it was just a dream

but then you told me

you would never leave me

why do i think

its is just a lie !

September 2 2015

One Day I was in tears you came and comforted me with a soft and gentle hands and I loved that you are always there for me and you didn't leave me like everyone else

February 9 2016

daddy was it me

you left me

when i was

about eight years

old i could

remember the pain

you told me

i was not

smart,or pretty,

everyone still makes

fun of you leaving me

so daddy

was it me?

The girl was strong

or so you think

she was lonely

because she was

so afraid of

the rejection that

she hid from

everyone when she

got to close she put up her walls

so nobody could hurt her again

The girl who see’s monsters

they say she is telling lies they are not the ones in the closet

they are the monsters you can’t see she can only here

“fat ugly loser,b***h”

they always make her cry

but nobody knows why

but they always say she is telling lies

the monsters are winning inside her mind

February 10 2016

The reason why I always leave is because I’m Scared..

Yes, I know you love me always sister

But I need some time to myself..

I know you’ll be there,

But I’m better off Alone.

February 23 2016

Depression is here it never goes away!

GO AWAY!!!

I yell into to the darkness as if there was something there i feel trapped

like in a prison that has all you darkest thought and all of your fears i feel like i’m drowning please go away please leave me here i can not take more of this so please let me be!

February 24 2016

she  smiles, I cry.

She Smart, I am Stupid.

She loves, I am alone.

She is amazing, I am Insignificant. 

She is beautiful, I am a Ugly . 

She is happy, I am depressed. 

My mask is perfect: 

She hides me

February 25 2016

I hide my feelings within a lock and key

and keep the truth away

but there is so much more to be said

I have your picture tucked away 

when I see your face I try to walk away 

but then you talk to me and I fake a smile when 

I know there is more to be said 

but I think it is time for my end

September 2016 Authors note I am sorry havent been writing much . as if you care....but here you are reading my collection .

setember 14 2016

I wake up it is all the same 

wake up be happy hide the lies 

with your eyes and say 

"I am Fine" Why do you

believe the lie Please just say

No I don't believe you

It is  all lies look me in the 

eye and say everything will be 

all right that everything will be o.k.

but for now I will just put on my mask and pretend it

never has happened  and I will always be 

Fine

 

Author's Note

I'm sorry im always depressed but this helps me to cope with other things

Reviews

[R.C. Black]

You're worth a hella lot more than to be treating yourself like this. You're worth a lot, those people who mock you, their opinions don't matter, chances are they're hurting just as bad.

You're worth it.
You're worth it.
You're WORTH IT.

Don't let anyone tear you down. YOU ARE WORTH IT.

[Chris]

Don't be sorry for being yourself...

Is a power-full read and very, very understandable in its flow.

[A. Amos]

Even in depression your passion for writing is well felt...value your gift and convert depression into pure bliss with your words.

[simeon26]

wow intense. Writing is a really therapeutic as well for me. Why not try channeling those emotions into an image and writing it out. It gives more layer to your writing and more expression.

[Mistaken Angel]

I understand how you feel, writing is a fantastic way to let out your emotions. I just started, but it sure does help me a lot! You have a lot of talent, and I hope you give yourself credit for it. Don't beat yourself up over the past, just remember that you can change it around to achieve a good future. I'll keep looking at your work, keep it up! Thank you for sharing, I know it can be hard - A problem shared is a problem halved though. Stay Strong.
~Tealah.

[Alyssa Franco]

Thank you hun this means a lot to me !!!

[Mistaken Angel]

You're welcome, I'm here if you need to talk. I may not know you, but I do know how you feel and it's not easy!

[Alyssa Franco]

thanks you!