Ode To Insanity

Ode To Insanity

Happy. Sad. Anger. Love.
Feelings that I 
tried to forget.
I sought for
Neutrality and Balance
leaving those around 
me unaware of my 
presence and emotions.
I cautiously took steps
making sure that
I affected no one,
physically nor mentally.
For I was alive
without a reason, 
constantly reasoning with
myself and misleading
my thoughts to
horrendous ideas.
Was I normal?
Was I born normal?
Was I born a…
Human?
Allowing these thoughts
to lead me to an answer,
I allowed seclusion
to reside within me;
making little, to no
contact with people,
while I attempted to
unravel the truth.
I didn’t wish to 
befriend anyone, 
knowing that one 
day they’d 
abandon me, 
backstab me,
betray me,
and eventually
label me as a
heretic for believing
in such ideas.

Fear. Pain. Isolation.
Such simple things 
that can turn a 
person blind to 
their true feelings.
Without hurting others, 
nor myself, I threw 
myself into a room
of darkness.
Quickly locking 
the door, and throwing
the key into the
dark pits of my
emotions.
Suffering from
Painful Famine,
Sickly Illnesses,
and the
Darkness of Loneliness,
I still managed to 
display a happy expression,
masking my 
unstable condition with
the cloak of facade. 

Accumulating, adding, amplifying...
until BOOM! 
Insanity finally broke open 
the door to my dark room,
and embraced me 
ever so sweetly. 

We became friends,
naturally, and watched
the bloody red
sunset daily.
He constantly made
me laugh over 
the sight of trickling 
crimson red blood.
We’d have conversations
hours on end about
absurd topics as people 
glared at us with red eyes.
We ignored their ignorance
and continued joyously
with our laughter-filled day,
while gazing the 
maroon skies,
filled with displaced clouds.

Author's Note

Feedback is more then welcomed, thank you for reading.

Reviews

[Bacchus]

insanity is for sure the result of
being in solitary confinement.
we don't usually throw ourselves there on purpose- or do we?
allowing all our thoughts to just bounce in the darkness of our own brains... getting darker and darker

it reminds me of Heath Ledger... trying to make himself the Joker- completely lost himself- and died in that darkness. You can't stay their for long...
we need the light.

[IncompetentWriter]

Thanks for the feedback! I've never thought about "throwing" ourselves into insanity, solitary confinement. I believe that insanity is something that everyone experiences in everyday life whether it be a break-up or a death of a friend. Each little step of this may lead to ourselves mentally breaking down. Again, thanks for the feedback, it helps me reflect on my writing and improve it in various ways!