8-10-2016

I feel defeated by life. I had to stop myself from giving hope for something that will never happen. I surrender. I’ll always have feelings for her but I needed to bury them. This time felt like it was the real deal because I gave up. I had to though. I can’t forgive myself for the pain I have caused her. Why do we hurt the ones we love? I didn’t understand. I have so much love for her but I realized that the feelings weren’t mutual. If they were we would be together. I can’t keep trying to catch air but if the wind picks up and I feel the breeze on my face I’ll smile and be thankful to feel it again. If I let it go and it comes back then it is meant to be. I couldn’t wait for that day but for now I have to let her go.