The Loser Inside

That may always be my fate,

I'm always just a day too late.

Between the fight of mind and heart,

I am just never really that smart.

I can have the biggest ego around,

But a loser inside is always found.

I let fear win and keep me in doubt,

Never leaping and letting myself out.

I wish I could say what was inside,

Before I drown in my minds tide.

As soon as I realize what I want,

My bad luck will pop up and taunt.

My mind finally told me how I feel,

Just one weekend to seal the deal.

Then when she kissed me a day later,

Knew all I wanted to do was date her.

Spent couple days to sort out my mind,

In those days she met someone I find.

Now I sit wondering if I missed my shot,

At least see if she felt the same or not.

Now I will have to sit back and wait,

See if I succumb to my same old fate.

To like someone and lose the chance,

Due to my fear of taking that stance.