Noise

Let go

I’m screaming

But please, keep up appearances

No one wants to see your pain, no need to make anyone feel awkward.

Stretched, so much, but keep smiling, keep saying everything’s fine

Be strong, they keep saying, you’re stronger than you know

Am I?

My instinct is to be nice, to stay calm, because I’m not a mad person

But I am, I am mad

I’m mad at letting myself suffer, at letting me hate myself, at letting you manipulate me

At ignoring how wonderful I am

All for a boy

For a person who never valued me for what I am.

I want to run in the rain, I want to help strangers, I want to watch sunsets

Be spontaneous

I want to be loved, the way I love

To be laughed at, and watched over, while still letting me fall

I’m done hurting, you’re done hurting me

Just let it go

I don’t need to do what you say

Anymore

Ever again