No expectations - I didn't want to fight version

This is another version to my "No expectation" story , a dear fried here was touched by my words and decided to add her words to it, made it her version too

No expectations right now, I didn't want to fight you

 

9:58am, at my desk  

Yes I know what you mean, but, it will sound not real and probably fake but honestly, I really don't have a frame of the woman I expect you to be, 

I teased you, called you sexy and more,only because I wanted it that special moment, but believe me when I say, 

I don't have an Agenda for you, for the both of us…

 

It’s not like I told myself: 

I want her to listen, be, entertain, be smart, be silly,

happy, be fun, for me, with me

I was looking for you for years…

 

... I need you around me when I need,

I need you to comfort, relieve,

make me smile, make me cry,

I want you to change; I want you to change me,

make me better, take the animal out,

take the beast, fulfil my sexual desires,

manage your sexuality, personality,

change you, for good, for bad, forever, 

 

I never said I want this to lead to change in me,

in you, touch the little child inside,

bring the mature girl out, make her take pills,

make her hate her parents, force her love herself,

her body her soul, force her to love my body,

make her love me, need me, want me,

be for me, be her, be US, be together, give space,

How much space do you need…

 

Here comes our first fight, right? 

 

We’ve both been there before, we got closer,

got hurt, we searched for the right amount of comfort,

wanted to hate each other, miss, respect, humiliate,

searched for the other’s soul, we searched  for peace,

still do,  we need more, we need to say goodbye,

we know how it will hurt right?

 

So, no, I really don't have an Agenda,

much more simple right now, maybe I’m older, wiser,

who knows. I want in the limited time we have,

to get to know you, maybe find moments when

our parallel worlds might meet to comfort us

or maybe not. 
 

I should get back to my coffee, it got cold

Reviews

[alanwgraham]

I read the first version but i think it is better in this format. There are still bits that i feel dont read well and seem contradictory! For example - 'change you, for good, for bad,' ' make her take pills, make her hate her parents'
Perhaps it is a true reflection of how your thoughts get confused when you are angry!
So, well done, Alan

[Lina Lotus]

A captivating story from start to end. It only leaves the reader dreaming of such connection. A joy to read

[JMaster1]

Thank you!

[Quinn]

So many emotions packed in a single piece but in such a skilful way so it isn't clumsy or messy, merely effective and powerful.

[Neytri]

It was a great piece to read, Dear Writer. What fascinates me about you is the rawness, the nakedness of your writing. Looking forward to such incredible, true pieces.

[Lenah Mehzabin]

you made the collision of practical feelings that comes out in real.Its really an amazing piece. Yes, you are wise

[Elise Anton]

I think I commented on the original? I liked it. I like this too, sometimes collaboration works, sometimes not.

This from memory is a little more refined than the first but the message still resonates the same with me.

You have a way of bringing out raw thoughts and feelings in the moment. I read this and I pictured you writing the words without pause... Great. I'd like to see more!

[JMaster1]

Thank you for your kind review , you always find the beauty in my writing