The Last Time I Spoke

The Last Time I Spoke

I could see my breath.

I could feel the heat. 

I could touch the viscosity of the air.

So I cut it with my soliloquy.

Always a soliloquy.

I felt the breeze of turmoil on my unshaven face.

I felt the wrench turning and sickening.

I feel it now.

Like a tornadic fell with no swooping end.

I reeled in chiaroscuro behavior.

I froze in a gaping shock of dawning;

Of knowledge. 

But it is now, since 

The last time I spoke,

That I have taken the time to know you.

To understand you. 

If I had known it would be

The last time I spoke,

I would have taken this time long ago.

More time. 

Time to memorize your face.

To take an eidetic picture of each perfect

Turn and crevice and point.

Yet there I sit, lonely, but the furthest thing from alone,

Looking down at my broken aglet. 

From then on I realized that I want 

Nothing more to be broken.

So as a safeguard, I’ve learned from 

The last time I spoke

And have yet to speak again.

For my words are drenched in pyrrhic moments

And come out like a tiger’s chuff.

So I’ve stopped. 

To you, my hazmat words simply turned your cheek.

But for me, my words will always shape my seasons

And will stray me from reality and actuality.

I simply feign a smile or a frown and look down

With rimy memories of my broken aglet and 

The last time I spoke.

Reviews

[ranscan]

I truly enjoyed the use of terminology in this piece. Certainly the structure and theme are strong and clear with out them, yet I experienced a pacing required by the analysis of some of the words chosen and how they related to the emotional text, which added to the pleasure.
I have to ask, did you create a list of words to include as the basis of your creation, or did you apply the terminology over the process? I may be off base, there is of course a living synergy in the piece, and it may be that it was a natural fluid interaction.

[Jashua F.]

Thanks for your review!
This poem is actually based on experiences I had so much of the poem did sort of write itself, as it were. However, I did seek to use certain words. Words like "tornadic" and "hazmat" came with the writing. But words like "pyrrhic" and, most of all, "aglet" came from the experiences.