Blades of Shame

Oh soul, why are you so empty, why are you so dull,
a mother hates her child in ways that chokes,
trying to gasp air while cutting through flesh through skull,
a hate so created by the devils within, a devil made of smoke.

apologies won't do it no more,
if hates is hate, then nothing is there,
and you can't buy s**t with the sorries you adore,
how to buy what you can't afford, and no one is there to bare.

go kill yourself, in the midst of a dark forest, do you dare?
A blade so thick so warm, and thoughts louder and louder they scream.
do it, do it, are you scared,
do it, do it, are you cared,
no one is here to stop you, no one is here to hear your dream.

A dream to sleep to all what have stabbed you,
in a heart so hard to feel any pain,
no one was ever there to be near you,
even if they did, all you did was stare as you kept every hurt you gain.

Shut up, you scream, in there there is you and me,
I am here for you, I am the blade of your dream,
come cross over with me, everything will be better soon you'll see
and then, kisses of blades come all along the ugly parts of me and then it was all done with no scream.

jamie xx