Inner Pain [Sabine]

After losing my best friend I was torn, so I wrote in 2009

I lost a peice of me last year.. my best friend of 15 years... my sister...my confidant 
Like a stroke part of me was left broken and torn;
It is such a shock I didnt have time to mourn.
Your loss was so sudden and unexpected;
I kneeled down and cried right where you rested.
I wish you were here to sit and talk with me while the world felt still;
Here without your presence has left me ill.
My tears flow and I have not much to say;
When I feel down, I just get down and pray.
Pray that God gives me strength to live without you;
Strength to give me joy when I'm feeling blue.
I know you would want me happy and whole;
I just cant help but feel as if I've been torn in my soul.
I take a deep breath and think why oh why;
All I can do is look at your daughter and sigh.
I am afraid to let another get so close to my heart;
How can I love, trust, live.. where do I start?
I'll never find a friend as I've found in you;
I just dont know if I can do this, I for once dont want something new.... 

Author's Note

Know...life is not over, healing takes time

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

Indeed it does. But until grief has done its work, the pain will persist. But it will pass.

[Kelly Scheppers]

Losing a sibling is like losing a parent, at least it was for me. I lost my older sister to the complications of asthma, and it still feels as fresh a wound. as it was the day I lost her. Give yourself time to grieve, and know that in time, her memory will become a great comfort to you, just as watching her daughter grow. I wish you love and light, Michelle.