Purgatory

We make our own anguish, in the worst of Hells...

Have I succumbed to ennui? No. Just an assault of the senses... Overwhelmed...
Eternal waiting in gloom, wrapped in horrid, dissonant  sound sculptures, eclipsed only by the cacophonous roar in my head. Can't drown out this dull place of Self.

I'm waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...

Others wait with me but they too are draped in their misery. Trapped in the shadows of what the more fortunate might call a soul. Some wail and grieve but never admit to their deserving deliverance into dread and dreary worlds of eternally bland tortures.

Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...

While demons of every description immolate me with visions of possibilities that are just no longer probable for me. I would the tortures of other infernal realms devour me, if only I could deny my 
acquiescence to mediocrity. My purgation is much needed. Nothing will truly come of my complacency and spiritual destitution here. If I cry out, the rulers of this twilight frequency will only hold me tighter.

So, I'm waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...

I must transcend this gloaming that fills me with the desire for nothing yet the pains of eternity allow me no surcease to my anguish. For this is my personal Hell, where children at play make frightening shadows at dusk and at dawn while I stand naked in a field  of thorns.

And I wait...
and wait...
wait...

Author's Note

Got sick of waiting on myself to write SOMETHING.

Reviews

[johnnyqueer]

The repetition works well in this piece. Every stanza is outstanding. I hate having to wait to be inspired. Sometimes the mind craves creation, but lacks the necessary foundation to do so.

[Caradoc]

It seems that sometimes writers block is good for something other than leaving us writers frustrated. I was drawn to this merely by the title and discovered that I have not been disappointed by its content. This is a nice, meaningful piece, brought to life by the descriptions of a talented writer. I especially liked the repetition of "waiting". It helped keep the tone of the poem, at least in my opinion.

This was a very insightful piece. You have much wisdom within you. My congratulations on penning a most delightful write.

[Kaylor Mason]

Sounds like a major case of writer's block, and a man's efforts to break it. Well done. I especially liked how you explained that some of the best tortures and torments in this world is knowing the great things we could become--but likely won't (at least that's my perception, anyway.)
I can relate to that part of it. The hard part about being a great writer is not being a great writer--it's KNOWING that you're a great writer, capable of so much, and yet in the end you're unable to make your dreams work out--and no matter what, you can't seem to do a damn thing about it. Whether it's sickness, circumstances, or just time--real life can be more unmerciful than a dungeon. That one lesson is practically my whole life story. Out of all your works i've reviewed so far, this one is the best :)

[masqued_muse]

Ha, ha...Night... I sooo hear you. Sometimes the only provocation is desperation. Damn that muse! Eternal torment....without hers.
This is a brilliant expose' of what lies buried deep in the human soul. The fear of a real physical realm of agony is required to keep some in balance. Not me, wakening spectrum of virtual thought...is enough.

[Pebbles]

Really love this brilliant work :)