Painful Red Reminders

I swear this razor only begs

to kiss my skin

on nights like this

too long and lonely and 

overflowing with thoughts of him-

though the "him" has changed

three times in two years

I can count the disappointment

in scars instead of 

days or weeks or months anymore-

and I guess it is an evolution 

of sorts-

I have a bottle of pills hidden

in a shoe under my bed and I haven't

looked at it like an option

(a final end)

since that first one chose

other arms to fall into and leaving 

me with his goodbye, his memory 

and his habit of finding relief in 

the form of sharpened objects

and painful red reminders.

"Painful Red Reminders"- 11-25-13- jessicagadziala

Reviews

[Laura Harrison]

First of all, I don't know how you haven't had any reviews on this yet because it is perfect. And, you did a great job of capturing the emotion and pain this this piece. I specifically like the line "I can count the disappointment in scars instead of days or weeks or months anymore."