Answers That You Seek

You messaged me this morning, your heart laid on the line

I've struggled to find the words to say, none of which were fine

So I don’t know how to give you the answers that you seek

I've been wanting to tell you something, but my words just seem so bleak

You know that I'm a writer, and I express myself in crazy ways

So this is how I'll tell you what has been haunting me for days

You have often been there when I needed someone most

For that I wish to thank you, but you were speaking with my ghost

I am not the girl I once was, I have changed in many ways

The girl you seemed to like so much has been shunned and cast away

I did not see this coming, I was totally caught off guard

If only you could see my mind, and the thoughts as they bombard

 

My brain felt out of order, I felt strangely out of place

I thought I needed time to think or maybe just some space

Tried to spend some time apart from the world that tore me down

Tried to take a breath or two, still my smile was a frown

 

You asked me of this other man and what feelings lie within

He surprised me just as well, and feelings did begin

My thoughts were very jumbled, each held a different fate

Both of you are different, I didn’t know which hand to take

But standing in the quiet room, walls too close and bare

I knew which choice I had to make and it seemed to be unfair

 

I told you I was broken and not completely whole

I warned you that I was flakey, and I came with a toll

I never meant to hurt you or make you feel betrayed

I wanted it to work out, for my darkness to be slayed

But that is not what happened, and now I clearly see

That you deserve way better, then the girl I have come to be

Your right, you're no Prince Charming, your better than even he

And I have faith that you'll find one day, the girl you really need.