Jungle gym

Life, mental illness, addiction

try to concentrate
N mind starts to turning
Getting lost n thoughts
N the wheels start to burning
Its like
Life had me Spinning
Like mary go roun
Till Hit rock bottom
Top devils play ground

Keep climbing to top
Get suck n I fall again
Leaping over hurdles
In the race
That il never win
Feeling
caught up in
A mutha f*****g
jungle gym

Went from popping pills
N searching for em daily
To peeing a cu
Taken wut the doctor gave me
But I'm up n down
Like teeter totter lately
Sleeping in
So I dont seem crazy
From Lashing out
To crying like a baby
Swear my pride
be the sin
That breaks me
Afraid that God
Cant even save me
If the devil comes
N Trys to take me
Oh Forgive me Lord
sins that made me
Make mistakes
N Babies hate me
Like Looking for love
N the men that date me
Trusten n fools
N letting em brake me
Dead end jobs
N checks they pay me
Barely enough
Just to cover them late fees
But I made some tips
N bought some beer
Getting drunk
To dry the tears

Try to concentrate
mind starts to turning
Getting lost n thoughts
N the wheels start to burning
Its like
Life had me Spinning
Like mary go round
Till Hit rock bottom
Top devils play ground

Keep climbing to top
.Get suck n I fall again
Leaping over hurdles
In the race
That il never win
Feeling
caught up in
A mutha f*****g
jungle gym

Hate that
Theres
no one around
And Silence is
the only sound
So I take walk
into To the clouds
Gotten so high
I cant come down
Found a pill
down On the ground
Took Another shot
To chase it down
Wrote a 100 songs
Like this one here
Hopen one day the crowd
Will cheer
But I'm really to
Insecure
I hate myself
Hate the mirror
Hate that it
Always appears
That people care but dissapear
being alone is my biggest fear
N Screaming so loud
Nobody hears
Been up 3 days
N I cant sleep
Gotta hunger for life
But I cant eat

Author's Note

If you Ingnore my grammar problems I would like to know what you think . Or if anyone can relate or even understands