Calm blue skies encroach on my soul,
Mesmerized I allow my judgement falter.
Through my tear stained eyes naivety fumbles ..
It will all be okay..
I believe and set ghostly burdens to be free..
Why do I walk in a dream in my wide awake??
Awakening..
Still to dream again..
Believe again..
My faith remains high though how many times..
Must I reach this wretched epiphany before I see..
The faith is not wanted nor warranted.
It shall not give unto me..
It shall unravel my becoming.
And leave me questioning self
Is this reality churning??
How can it be when it contradicts..
Conflicts and with vivid vindictiveness constricts my breath..
Gasping..
Oblivion caress.. oblivious to the hex
Conundrum so ho-hum my beats drum to death..
Mute me..
So I don't eat my maturity
Nurture the spewtum..
The rainbows I hurled wrath so harsh
Irrational in part.. we part..
How can I cease the war when you breathe to fight..
Sedate the fire when you breath ignite..
Danger signs..
Then the blue clouds catch my tears eye..
And I smile..
Then the breeze says "suprise" and aghast my tears quake.