What’s Left

What’s Left

k.s 3/2013

My heart feels heavy

 

A paper weight sinking

 

To my stomach, butterfly’s falling

 

Making my bird legs shake

 

 

 

Vocal chords try to make sound

 

Your name vibrates in my mouth

 

Buzzing and humming between my lips

 

Do not think of the last time we kissed

 

 

 

I promised my knees I won’t fall

 

I promised I would stand tall

 

You said it would all be okay

 

Your promises you did betray

 

 

 

On my way to bed I am tired

 

Clockwise I roll my bony ankles

 

I remember lying next to you

 

Popping them loudly right on cue

 

 

 

I find my way through this maze

 

Left your fog there I’m in a haze

 

Constellations spell out your name

 

Over thinking you causing trauma to my brain

 

 

 

Feeling your hips crash into mine

 

I feel wet I feel hot and feverish

 

Dripping cold sweat but I’ll be fine

 

Concentrate this could be the last time

 

 

 

Grinding my teeth biting the pillow hard

 

Fingers swell and grip seeking their reward

 

Hanging on trying to be steady

 

You’re fast no consistency leaving me lonely

 

 

 

Wont you come back home to me

 

Come back to our bed to sleep

 

My head is spinning I can’t see

 

Waking up to the alarm beeping

 

 

 

Figments of my imagination

 

Keep me in this state I’m in

 

Trying to give you what you want

 

Because loving me isn’t, you just like to

 

Haunt

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k.s. 3/2013