When I asked you if you needed me

Being a teenager: most confusing times of my life.

When I asked you if you needed me you said

No

When I asked you how you felt about me you said

I don't know

When I asked you if you could move on you said

I could

And i’m sorry to ask you to carry the weight of my burdens but lately

The stars don’t look like they fit all that well in the sky

And I could really use a long hug, an understanding smile, a knock on the window, or a pat on the head

I could really use an answer to all these questions.

If you answered my 3am phone call it probably wouldn't be for the best

I would ask you why

I would vomit out my heart embarrassingly with longing and adolescent anger

I would tell you that I need you

I would beg you not to leave me

I would ask you to leave me  

I would ask what happened to the person who stayed up all night with me

The person who would do anything just to see me.

I would wonder where all that love you said you had for me went you see

I am a person with all too many problems from trust issues to laziness

And I carry them like a worn out fanny pack

And I know

I’m hard to deal with and I require so much attention but I promise you

If you love me right I promise you I will do anything to make you happy

On nights where you can't sleep I will risk losing my license just to come see you

And If you needed me like I need you right now I would be there

I’m so scared of a nonexistent fire that sometimes I light the match myself sometimes

I wish someone could be there for me when it all burns down

When the walls I’ve set up all turn into soot and ash

I wonder who would be kind enough to stay

Kind enough to lend me a hand or a long hug, an understanding smile, a knock on the window, a pat on the head

I wonder who will

Reviews

[Chris]

You aren't alone in your "questing" nor questioning... and very forthright in your tones and reasoning. I could "see" you paired in a booth at an all night diner - lost-in-time gazes across the tabletop... fingertips softly stroking an arm as two voices echoed inside each the other..

[Babe Roxx]

Is that art by Banksy? Nice. I agree teenage years can suck...as I suck in reviews...nevertheless, I truly enjoyed your emotive write.

[Cat]

it is LOL but thanks for ur review :)

[Babe Roxx]

You are very welcome. ;)

[Heather Louise Argibay]

I really like this one, especially the line:
I’m so scared of a nonexistent fire that sometimes I light the match myself sometimes.... I can relate that push pull

[Cat]

Thank you for your kind review :3 I'm glad you like that line

[Bo Lanier]

wow, creative, imaginative, i love it.

[The Iron Horseman]

You'd be surprised! There are a lot of good people out there, it just takes a while to find them.

Motto: Never give up!

[Cat]

haha i'll try not to! thanks :)