Sorry I feel

Sorry I feel

A Poem by KaoticOrder

I'm brainwashed by paranoia
The kind of person who'll pull you close and then ignore ya
Rather keep words inside my head because they tend to floor ya
And tears caught in my throat because they annoy ya.
I'm sorry that I feel to much, but don't smile enough
But remember the day I met you I told you I'd self-destruct
You told me you'd put me back together, guess that was a bluff
Now I'm wondering how it all got so fucked up.
Maybe it is all me and my imagination
that causes our troubles and devastation
But I try to move towards our destination
clinging on with desperation.
And I'm told I don't try, but I've given my all
You focus on my mistakes, leaving me to pick myself up alone when I fall
So I'm sorry I let down the wall when you asked
Sorry I showed myself, just so you could look passed.
No point in saying my thoughts now
It'll just get turned around on me somehow
Maybe I was stupid for letting you in to see
Or maybe I was stupid for thinking when I did you'd still care about me.

© 2015 KaoticOrder

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Wow, that is a really good poem. I'd love to give that to my ex boyfriend to read. Everything you wrote in that poem so applies to him. I would love for him to see that. It would definitely make him think that's for sure. Very well written. :)


Posted 7 Years Ago

I can understand this poem completely. Beautiful words and amazing way of describing how you feel.

Posted 7 Years Ago

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Added on May 19, 2015
Last Updated on May 19, 2015



Essex, MD

My name is Nerissa, but I go by Kaos on most writing sites. I am a twenty two year old aspiring writer and a stay at home Mother of a darling little angel named Sabrina. Began writing as dabbles an.. more..