Letting Go Is Never Easy

I've said my goodbye's...

Letting go is never easy.

It's filled with trite goodbyes and somedays.

I'm always here, although I shouldn't be,

There's still a tendril clinging fast.

 

I don't know how to cut the web,

Release us from this confusing trap.

Hitching breaths, gulping air,

The heart and chest ache and anxiety beckons.

 

Just the thought of letting you walk away

Fills me with brimming disquiet.

I hear the laughter, the murmured words,

The unspoken thoughts of your responses.

 

I know she's there, I hear her voice.

It's better this way, my head tells me so.

She's perfect for you.

I can never be what you want me to be....

 

Letting go is never easy,

especially of you,

Who once shared my passion with unbridled joy,

Thrummed my soul deep with those searing aqua eyes.

 

I chose to withdraw and keep a piece of me from you.

You’ll never forgive me, for saying no.

Choosing a safety and security net,

Instead of letting myself fall.

 

Tumbling, head over heels, so passionately I loved you.

But I never shared my darkest needs,

Fear of the unknown too much for me.

My heart is cracking…can’t you see?

 

The breadth of my desire you’ll never know,

It is more than I can bear.

I lock it away in darkness and pain,

Knowing I have to give you away.

 

Why…oh why…couldn’t I see?

Didn’t you see my heart in my eyes?

My longing, my despair?

My choice wasn’t my heart at all.

 

Yet, I bear the cross of my decision.

My stupid, rational, thinking mind.

Curse my heart and my conscious,

What was I thinking of losing you?

 

You’ve moved on, you had no choice.

I know that now…

How could you wait for something, someone,

Who would never be there?

 

A piece of me is forever yours,

Always will be, eternal more,

I’ll sigh at night when dreams await,

knowing I’ll see your aqua eyes once again.

 

Letting go is never easy,

Especially when it's you.

Any Who Winner

Jul 20, 2011

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Author's Note

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Reviews

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

Heart breakingly beautiful............Key here to me.......How could you wait for something, someone, who would never be there?