Father you almost created a Monster

I don't know where this came from!! Totally Perplexed

There was a time were I sat in a broken vessel, my eyes weeping with flames, my voice like gravel and my heart like stone. I was a monster of mass proportions. I never knew of love, of fear, only a man of physical strength but yet a little boy in mind, untouched by a fathers guidance. This Apple never fell from any tree, that tree never existed....You wasn't there, you never picked me up, gave me words of valour, of wisdom, of faith. I became that monster in another form. One that cloaked his image from lovers gaze.