Desirious

I hate it when my thoughts turn to a long SMS,
Eventually fighting the urge to call and confess
That I always wonder why I wasn't enough for him?,
I'm flooded with emotions, should I sink or swim?

It's 11:11, so f**k the wishes that never came true,
Every good night, every sleep tight, every I love you
I can finally breathe 'cause I'm no longer by your side?,
Does your bed feel bigger now, so lonely and wide?

Told me I was desperate and being super clingy,
"You're quite handful!", without wanting to sound whiny
Left me behind, grappling alone in this cold rocky patch,
It took me years, to build boundaries, let go and detach.

My deep seated desire to be with you died a long time ago,
I'm not parched of your attention anymore my ex-beau
Hope we cross paths again when I'm happier than ever,
Promise you'll see me prettier, well, so much the better.