Wonder

When you're depressed,

You sit by yourself and wonder.

You wonder why no one notices

No one notices that although your lips play a smile, 

your eyes convey your darkest secret.

You wonder why people are so mean

You laugh it off when your brother says

he wishes you were dead. 

But inside,

You wonder why you aren't dead. 

You wonder why you're never enough.

You wonder why you listen to music that brings back painful memories.

You wonder a lot.

But no-one will ever know

Because if you fake a smile

and keep your cuts covered

No one talks about it.

And maybe.

Just maybe.

That's why you wonder so much. 

Author's Note

Sorry it's bit emo. I promise I'm not always down and depressed!!

Reviews

[songstress]

It's okay to be depressed. Be it for a moment or a couple of years, it's okay. Often, people say they aren't ignoring you, because they don't know. Or they don't act because they don't know how to respond. in a way, being a bystander is the same thing as perpetuating the action of social apathy.

But, I think actively working through it be in in poetry, story-writing, art, dance, music, ect. is good. It's rather cathartic isn't it?

Personally, I used to be the same way. keeping it bottled up, smiling, trying to reasure others when I wanted the same way. But, it hurts doesn't. I mean off hand there were studies done that said, if you smiled more it elevates your mood a bit. But, how long will that hold before your bandages wear and the pain bleeds through. actions can keep you temporarily distracted. But, I believe that it's the intellectual and the verbal that actually keeps you sane.

so, even if you feel that this is a little "emo," I say go ahead and work through your feelings through verse. It feels better that way, doesn't it. Or it can when you find the right venue, right?

Good work on the piece, it's brutally honest, and relateable in subject manner.