This Ones for Her

Fetish for misery reminds me
To think of her on these nights
Tears more than Mary
Draws me out of my quiet place

I touch her in a photograph
Still golden- love of our past

Her hand reaches out white from the ground and whispers
"Why'd you let us drown"

I find no answers in these waters
Of distant joy from one another

And still no other girl could fill
This pathetic heart that finds me ill

So every night I drown my mind
In water god did not design
To keep a moment for myself
Free of all I wish I never felt