Tonight

I resign from life

had been a time in my life
wouldn’t attach myself to any place or a face

had made a treaty with myself
keeping me from facing walls of a cell or a hell

went to breach all the terms
now I’m left to face this phase of helluva hell

but tonight I resign; I re-sign the old treaty

Author's Note

what do you think it's about?

Reviews

[DeliriousCerises]

This poem makes me think about this life-pact I made with a friend. We were both going through some rough times, and we made an agreement not to kill ourselves, at least until the next year on that day. And in the next year we would decide if we wanted to die then, or make another pact.

But of course, that's not what I think this is about. I'm not sure how many people make life-pacts. To me, it seems to be about refusing to feel so to not be in pain.

The first stanza, talking about not being attached to anyone or anything "a place or a face"

The second stanza to me speaks of why you didn't want to be attached. "had made a treaty with myself" being attached, for whatever reason, is a weakness of sorts that let in bad things, maybe pain, or more literal to the "a cell or a hell" reference, perhaps you were in a past relationship that became abusive, and for one reason or another, couldn't leave.

The third stanza to me speaks of getting attached, or feeling something, and all the things you feared, are now coming true. Getting trapped, perhaps, or hurt. And now you have to deal with it.

So the last stanza speaks to me of dealing with it. "resign" back to the original treaty, to not feel, because breaking it did not work. So you "re-sign" the pact you made with yourself.

Now of course, all of this is my own interpretation, and I understand may not actually have anything to do with what you intended.

[Dayran]

A new committment.

[SoulCrusader (Yas)]

I think it's when an event changes a persons philosophy from one extreme to another...another excellent poem!!

[Boldpen]

Very interesting write, indeed.
you have beautifully penned down the torment of a person's heart bound to life's burden and chains.
Nicely written. Great job!