Leak

My world aint gray but it bears a grim pallor
Covered in the results of dirty doings and past valor
Like the miracle of birth on a bathroom floor
Ill a*s analogy to a room full of doors

Choices to be made its all a game of survival
Posted up on the corner trying to peep my next rival
The only cats eating are those you love dearly
That’s the only kind of love in the heart of the city

Living a life of willful destruction and contradiction
Result to living greasy cuz people in power lack attention
Don’t want to but got to break the laws out of necessity
No upward movement just a downward destiny

Its easy when you come from wealth to turn and ignore me
But while your backs turned cats are stacking blood money
Trying to get rich by profit from another’s pain
But what good its to gain if over your soul you lose claim

I aint looking for no sympathy just trying to getcha thinking
People don’t understand how the streets will have you slowly leaking
From your heart your mind your soul it will pour
Have you trying to understand what its all for

So close to the edge you identify with death
Knowing your next inhale could be your last breath
It’s a harsh reality of profit from pain
Cutthroat life trying not to die in vain

Can't preach to a thug who thinks his fate pre-sealed
Can't Talk to a man who looks for his last meal
When your life is written off and u don’t a chance to grow
You hit the corner hard with weed, dust, heron or blow

Its hard to work a grind when your business partners death
But its do or don’t eat so a fiend got coke on his breath
See this is the part where your soul starts to leak
Every time you give somebody something that make they body geek

Because you killing people feeding ya fam with blood money
And the powers that be profit from both ends thinking it funny
You stuck living the life of a low level trafficker
I understand the paradox so no I aint mad at cha

If was living your life I'd be in the same s**t
Thinking the corner, fiends and the coke in my palm was it
Watching all my peoples in life die in their peak
Life out here is a bad faucet s**t stay on slow leak

Cats trying to play me like I did this to myself
Like I wanted to live sell to sell like it was good for my health
Declaring war on what I do and coming after me
Just getting at the symptoms not what the problem really be

You backed me in a corner so what now do I do
I defend what’s mine I do what I gotta do
I have no future beyond the next couple minutes
I’m just doing my best trying to pay penance

It was never my intent to hurt nobody
All I ever wanted was just to be somebody
But yall denied me that and this is what you got
You want to point a finger look at your own heart

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Anarda Nashai]

"I aint looking for no sympathy just trying to getcha thinking "....

Mission accomplished! There are so many themes here...so much to dwell on and pick apart. Very three-dimensional...so I won't comment any further--except to say...I LOVE IT. Great Job!!!!!

-Anarda Nashai
author of Despondent
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www.anardanashai.webs.com!