ones old self

about ones past that should be left in the past!!!!

  MY PAST IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO LIVE WITH EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE!

I HAVE THE SCARES TO PROVE IT! I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF AND BE NORMAL! BUT INSTEAD I HAVE TO WATCH IT BECAUSE I COULD TURN INTO THATS PERSON AND I DONT HAVE THAT MUCH BODY LEFT TO ADD MORE SCARES INSIDE AND OUT!

  MY OLD SELF IS SOMETHING THAT WAS CRUEL HAD HATRED IN HER HEART FOR EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING I CAME IN CONTACT WITH! WHEN I WAS IN VEGAS FOR SCHOOL I COULD FEEL LIKE I WAS SLIPPING AWAY TO THAT OLD DONNA! THE ONE THAT EVERY ONE HATED!

IF I DONT WAKE MYSELF FROM THIS NIGHT MARE THE NEXT THING I COULD DO IS PICK UP SOMETHING THAT IS DANGEROUS TO MY HEATH!

WHETHER ITS SEX DRUGS OR A PERSON PLACE OR THING!

 I JUST WANT TO BREATHE BEFORE I BECOME THAT DONNA! I CANT BECOME HER BECASUE THIS TIME IF I AM THERE WONT BE A WAY BACK FROM HER! SHE IS TO STRONG FOR ME TO FIGHT AND I HAVE TO FIGHT HER ALONE THIS TIME I HAVE TO BEAT HER!

 

MY OLD LIFE IS ONE OF SIN WHETHER ITS ALL THE SEX I HAD ALL THE EXPERIMENTING I DID!

ITS ONE OF DRUGS I HAVE DONE A LOT THAT DID NOT FASE ME OR I JUST DIDNT LIKE!

OF DOING NOTHING BUT BE IN THE PARTY LIFE!

ONE WERE I HAD TO GET ATTENTION WHETHER THATS FROM MY FAMILY GUYS FRIENDS ORT OTHERWISE I DID EVERYTHING TO GET THAT AND THAT STILL WAS NOT ENOUGH!

I DID AND TRIED EVERYTHING!

 

IF I GO BACK THAT WAY AND GIVE IN TO MY SCAREDNESS OR MY BETTEN PATH I WILL BE HER AND THERE WILL NO MORE OF THIS DONNA!! THE OTHER DONNA KNOWS THAT AND WILL DO EVERYTHING IN HER POWER TO DESTROY ME!!!

 

 

AND NO I AINT CRAZY I JUST HAVE A PAST THATS HAUNTS ME AND HAUNTS TO CLOSE TO HOME!!! AND THE SURFACE!!

Author's Note

BE GENTLE I AINT CRAZY!! JUST A PAST!!!