It's fine.

It's fine.

A Story by Lady Celery
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The worst thing about small talk is that it's not really talking at all.

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The worst thing about small talk is that it's not really talking at all.

I think my least favorite thing to hear in casual conversation is "how are you?" because my only response will always be "I'm fine, thanks." Fine and dandy. It's not like you really care, I'm just giving you the answer you expect because honesty would ruin you. You can't handle the truth. You probably have no interest in the fact that the growing realization that I'm broke and my life is going nowhere and I'm too anxious to ever possibly make something of myself is causing my suicidal thoughts to go through the roof. You'd rather talk about the weather, or maybe a movie you recently saw. That's fine, I guess.

What's worse is that over time, I've closed off to more and more people, and allowed myself to dole out the "I'm fine" response much more generously, and it's caused me to go numb.
Try me, I feel nothing. In a sense, it's made me stronger and I am in no way vulnerable. But where it matters most, I am being destroyed: my creativity. I have found myself constantly stuck, trying desperately to make music, but I can't make music if I don't feel it filling up my body with joy. That's what it does for me, and if I can't have that I have no idea what else to turn to. I'm living as a body without a soul; a ship without a captain. But it's fine, right?

Yeah, I'm fine. That's all you need to know.

© 2014 Lady Celery


Author's Note

Lady Celery
I haven't posted anything in a while, so here is a short blurb. You can say whatever you want, just please don't give me sympathy.

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Some words are ways to close and stop a conversation.
"Yeah, I'm fine. That's all you need to know."
Above statement is final words on a closed topic. Nice use of thoughts and words led the reader to a logical ending. Thank you for sharing the excellent tale.
Coyote

Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.



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Yeah I'm fine too. At least I'm still walking and functioning like a human... is that what it means to be fine?

Great write. A lot of us can relate to that. Thanks for sharing. :)

Posted 5 Years Ago


Some words are ways to close and stop a conversation.
"Yeah, I'm fine. That's all you need to know."
Above statement is final words on a closed topic. Nice use of thoughts and words led the reader to a logical ending. Thank you for sharing the excellent tale.
Coyote

Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

that's life you know, no one truly cares.
and sometimes you can use that emptyness real good!

Posted 7 Years Ago



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