Refusal

Ever had those close to you all telling you not to do something, but we were convinced we were going to do it anyways?.. Only to find out, they saw something we didn't.. Welcome to one of those moments for me. Inspired by Nicole Renee

 

Refusal

 

By: Lalli

 

“Don’t do it!” They told me

“Don’t do it!” They begged

 

I was set in my ways

Today I will make my own mistakes

Refusing to listen as if the voices of those who love me

Never mattered

Live or die?!

Because if I do this

I may not be alive

 

It was a risk I was willing to take

Shattering hearts

Break

Worrying about my well being

Each day they prayed to hear from me

But that call

I rarely made

I was busy…

Too busy for family

Livin’ life on the streets befriending vultures

That could see my need since desperation…

Wreaks!

They picked at the weak feeding, as I bled

Since it could easily be read that I felt alone

It was my choice, I know

So I tried to cover it up with a fake persona

A drug dealer

“Come buy your weed!

I got it, and I got it for cheap”

All because I needed money

Jeopardizing my life

Over pride

 

See, my parents claimed I needed therapy

They were wrong and I knew it dead on

I was a typical teen

Convinced they didn’t know

Convinced they didn’t understand

So I left and took to the streets poor and hungry with no place to sleep

Opening my eyes to the reality of life

And now that it’s over

I can look back to those years in my past

Shamefully I have to admit

They were right!

They saw…what I couldn’t

Understanding the situations I lived through

Since they too went through it

When I thought I was alone

Making my OWN choices

I never realized

I was destroying others lives

Affecting those around me

I did not see

I was blind

 

I saw what I desired

Fueling that fire was independence

A young man making a rebellious stand

Now understanding the value of how lucky I am 

To be alive

To share my experiences

So others can learn from the mistakes that I’ve made

With high hopes

That you’ll listen

Because guess what?!

I didn’t!

 

**A PERFORMANCE OF THIS POEM CAN BE VIEW ON YOUTUBE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hVT016e19E ***

Author's Note

This poem is better performed than read, in my own eyes.. the video of the performance will be posted later today

Reviews

[vanishing]

Read or performed-I believe your words
if taken to heart have the same effect
Uplifting and-to put down pride in terms and understanding
at what point does a man's eyes truly open to his surrounding-
in reflection answers like such
come to light through awareness - readings like this opens
the reader to new ideas and thoughts-for that I am grateful
Thank you

[Emily B]

It's a sad old tale. Mostly, I think, the prodigal son can go home when he learns his lessons. This is a good write.

[DIANA WILBANKS]

WOW! I liked this and I'm sure this can be very helpful to those that do listen...god bless you!