Self Esteem

What they done to so many.

 

 

Self esteem

 

They say. So in a mirror I say.

In the valley I am defeated by God's cruel kingdom

 

Accused of imperfection and guilty of being everything but a child of God. At least they won't say that.

 

Stupid is the name

Just before ugly 

Insignificant dummy

No one loves me 

They say I'm worse

Oh poor thing

Less than nothing

 

Tie a noose around my neck, 

Shackles and a ball and chain, 

Just to propel the fall snap the neck of me 

 

You inoperable loser 

You bummy fool 

Opposite of cool

Anything but perfect 

You need to be hurt quick

 

So slice my gums so I can't eat 

Let the huger pains throb my stomach 

On the outside kick and punch me 

Crack my ribs till my insides bleed

Cut out my tongue so when I scream it's unrecognizable

Beat me like a stubborn mule use bats, rocks, sticks, whips 

Strike till your hearts content

Shoot me like a dog that won't hunt 

Hit areas that are not fatal to prolong the suffering

 

I'M NO GLUTEN FOR PUNISHMENT.

 

Not close to good, enough of they're suffering 

Without a crowd that has no in

End my needless existence

Be a fleeting breeze drift away and lie still

Lay awake an die with sickness 

Whooping cough, shots of pain that stabs and stings the brain 

Faithfully playing with every nerves, hallucinating horror

The crime is looking at You

 

So Tie a noose around my neck 

Shackles fitted too tightly to my writs

Attach a ball and chain 

Let the floor cave in 

As I am suffocated

Pointless gasp for air 

Set fire to my feet so I'll burn and inhale smoke

When I die break my neck just to be sure

Stick a fork in me with a smile and a snack

May God let me rest.

I'll call this the best of times.

 

I'll dance my way to oblivion

With wilted roses that have sharp thorns

To feel the thistles pierce my palms as a grip them tight

In a all black suit, dirt stained with dried mud 

No blinders or black bag on my face

Stare me in the eyes watch me die

Don't you dare re position your focus

Witness the life fade out of my eyes 

Observe the spectacle of a corpse

As you set it on fire, dump my ashes in the ocean

Until I have properly decomposed 

I persist upon the swaying rope

Let my odious stench emanate throughout the your world

After me you'll find so much

You'll feel me in your sleep and awake sufficiently tired 

You'll bang on deaths door to appeal to me

Or request an early retire, but No you will Live

You will live a recurring Night terror

 Scream as I eat away at you

Puppet prepare for me

Inability to think without me on your brain

Madness is my game and you all are the victim