Jumbled Thoughts of a Broken Girl

Couldn't think of a good title.

Jumbled Thoughts of a Broken Girl

 

She doesn't know what to do

or what she's supposed to say

she thought the pain was over

but it grows more and more each day.

 

Her thoughts throw her into confusion

which brings her more pain

from visions of her past

and the one that makes her sain.

 

She wears a fake smile

to hide her pains from abuse

physical and emotional blows

and men taking her for their use.

 

That's the life she's grown to know

it's all led to her depression and sadness

as blood spills down her wrists

all she wants is to escape this madness.

 

She's come so far

and escaped her hell

but all this changed her

she became a lifeless shell.

 

As time passed on

the bruises on her body healed

but the emotional blows tore at her

breaking down her shield.

 

Lost in the darkness

consumed by all her pain

she's broken and alone

living in doubt and shame.

 

Losing all her faith

tears falling from her eyes

a light began to gleam through the darkness

someone finally heard her cries.

 

His eyes full of love

his past full of hate

he pulled her from the darkness

to save her from her fate.

 

His words were so gentle and kind

as he spoke of such pure love

entranced by his words

she fell for this angel from above.

 

Within his arms

she felt complete

with his love, all her demons

she could defeat.

 

Her broken little heart

taped back together

he promised his love for her

would last forever and ever.

 

But the closer they got

the more was revealed

all the secrets of his past

it all was unveiled.

 

His past full of drinking

and partying with some w****s

smoking with his friends

strip clubs and sex and so much more.

 

A popular jock

a jerk full of hate

all this scared me

was he really my soul mate?

 

Head full of confusion

heart full of pain

he reassured me he was different now

and he'd done all that in vain.

 

Sometimes I still see

the jerkness of his past

his impatience and anger

it would come and go so fast.

 

I worry and I fear

that he'll be sucked back in his past

get drunk and party more

and I'd lose all the love I had grasped.

 

He frightens yet pulls me in

sometimes I feel like a disgrace

but other times I feel so loved

when he's romantic and we embrace.

 

With so much confusion

I must look deep within my heart so true

to find what she is feeling

and what I feel is love for you.

 

I'll never lose faith

that he'll forever change

with talks of our future

our hearts we have exchanged.

 

For I have never loved anyone

as much as I love him

and I believe our love for each other

can stop him from his sins.

 

Two souls entwined as one

brought together by fate

can save the other from the world

with hope and love instilled in the hearts of these soul mates.

 

Stephanie Guerrero

Author's Note

I kept switching back and forth between first person and third person on accident but when I had a fellow poet friend read it they told me to leave it like that, what do you think?

Reviews

[Reuben Porter]

I like the third person, I agree with your friend it should definitely be kept in the poem. It makes the speaker feel more natural. I feel deep inside we all think of ourselves as two people, fighting for control. Our emotional side, and the side that wishes to cover themselves up and stay hidden. I think this is a very beautifully written poem. Keep up the good work, I am looking forward to seeing more of your work.