Mindless

Pen; please keep my hands busy

Paper; please keep my mind blank

I need to write and not stop

Nothing is being thought as I keep writing

Before my heart freezes with ice

The venom is consuming my veins,

And fire is burning my eyes

 

I can taste the blood in my mouth from biting my tongue

The pain of holding my breath no longer bothers my lungs.

I miss pain

I miss feeling numb

So the anger doesn't have time to take over again

 

I remember the feeling as the blade sliced like butter

Making one line...then another

I enjoy that so the anger doesn't remind me why I am doing it.

Because it becomes stronger every time it hits.

 

I can feel it; in my heart,

It becomes heavier

And it beats slower.

Although I feel the pain

It is as if I am the walking dead.

 

I hate the feeling of anger

It gets me anxious even more,

Then when I do look at the clock, it's magically slower

My hand is writing at lightning speed

I let it because it is the best way for my emotions to be freed

 

I really don't want to become a monster

But I feel it inside trying to get out of its chamber...

Reviews

[ms. barrie]

I have to agree with JRJN: I also enjoyed the drama that spirals
up & out, creating a sense of honesty, and desperation...
amazing dark imagery painted here, as well as pleasing fluidity.
much enjoyed...thanks for sharing
~ X - barrie

[Linda]

Thank you for the review my love. I always love the feedback. BTW dont forget that storyyyyyyy cant wait to read the next chapter.

[ms. barrie]

you're most welcome, lovely. lol you're too kind...& I thank you for
showing a genuine interest in passionate obsession... I think you're
the only one who ever was or is lolololol...it truly means a lot.
oh and we'll see how that story goes. Will be back to visit again
soon, my friend (:

[JRJN]

love the drama and passion of this, and can relate to it.....

[Linda]

thanks for your feedback :)