Painful truth behind a beautiful smile.

I've been through a lot of pain,
And I've been through a lot of hell.
I've had a lot of ups and downs,
So I hope it all turns out swell.

Real people are hard to find now a days,
For society has messed us up.
I hold my head up strong and high,
And sip from my optimistic cup.

But despite my happy and smiling face,
There are pains you will never see.
I'm afraid to open up my heart,
To anyone but me.

I've been let down more times then I can count,
And I know it's all a part of life.

Unfortunately though; when I turn my back,
I'm painfully stabbed with a knife.

I put on a front as a strong-willed woman,
But secretly I'm dying inside.
I keep it all bottled up in me,
In fear of losing my pride.

And there's thing's I want to say to you,
But I get so scared I choke.
I can't help myself from wondering,
The truth behind your “joke.”

I know not everyone's perfect,
Although most of us wish we could be.
I struggle with it day over night,
Me and my insecurity.

I'm too this; And I'm too that,
These words running through my mind.
She said this; He said that,
Now my confidence is impossible to find.

I once stared at this exact same person,
Pleased with what I saw.
Harsh words and rumours have changed me.
Now I notice every flaw.

Although I have a rough time,
There's still important people to me.
I've had one friend whose helped me through all,
And thank god for my family.

They may not know my pain or sorrow,
But they know i have something to hide.
Patiently waiting;Their here for me,
And act as my needed guide.

Author's Note

I've never been all that good at writing; but I love it with a passion.
Please let me know what I've done good on and what I need to improve please and thank-you.

Reviews

[TBPopper]

I think you have a good idea. I don't think you've done anything wrong, per se, but as I read, I sort of felt like some of the rhymes were 'easy'. That is, they seemed like really obvious rhymes. There's nothing wrong with that, really, it just sort of made me feel like I was reading something from my teen years.

I did, however, really like the line 'and sip from my optimistic cup'. Not sure why.

[Amit Parmessur]

There is definitely soo much promise in you. Nothing wrong from your words. Keep on the nice words... :) regards to you.