Hiding

You just left and I find myself hiding already, 

Hiding from the pain I feel when you walk out the door, 

Hiding from all these emotions, I put my feelings into writing, 

But only writing things I know you'll never see, 

God forbid I tell you the whole truth, every detail of my heart. 

I'm scared you'll run from me if you know how deeply I care about you. 

This isn't just some little crush, 

You have taught me what love feels like, 

To feel the others complete emotion, 

and right now I feel every ounce of your pain. 

I cry at the thought of you loosing your daughter, 

You may not be her blood father but you're the best father in the world. 

She looks up to you just like I looked up to my dad. 

I keep checking my phone, hoping you've reached out, 

Trying to keep my distance and not push you through this hard time. 

I don't want to make any of this harder for you.