Never Good Enough

I compare myself to everyone else every day

First, Ana

Telling me not to eat

Reminding me

It's not worth it

Eating will make me fat

Starving will make me thin

Thin as a post

Thin as a stick

As thin as I can be

120

110

100

90

80

Maybe even

75

When I fail Ana

Then comes Mia

Telling me I'm a failure

The only way I can

Win Ana back

Is to go into my bathroom

Late at night

Kneel in front of the toilet

Purge, purge, purge

Purge the fat away

And Silenda

Always there

Every day, every minute

Every second

Telling me

Whispering to me

Everything I am

Fat

Ugly

Stupid

Horrible

Messed-up

Crazy

Insane

Failure

Not good enough

Never good enough

Never

Good

Enough.

Reviews

[Prayers and Proclamatio..]

Thank you! I wrote it originally in a word document, and messed around with the formatting so that each stanza is justified and makes a little box. I think that makes up at least a little for it not being as long, but unfortunately, I can't do that kind of thing on Writer'sCafe. Oh well, thanks for the review, and I'm glad you liked it!

[FictionAsVeneer]

The fact that these frustrations feel like they're a product of simply being in the presence of the antagonists makes this poem very interesting as it almost seems that those mentioned are close to you but close enough as constant reminders of the initial problem, dealing with self-confidence and self-image. The way the poem was expressed gives the passage an initial sense of teenage angst, but the urgency and anxiety gives no reason to doubt that anyone can identify with these feelings. I enjoyed the creative form, however felt like the poem could have been longer, and, perhaps, more conclusive. Great write!