Wish

ummm... yeah... rambling again

You're looking for the sacrificial lamb... Loving you's not enough?
I wish I knew your secret... your reason...
Your control is not enough... When I take control it's not enough... Never enough... Too much is never enough... Even holding you is not enough... Why wont you hold on?
I say the words... I feel them... you twist them and  distort them... but still they mean the same...
I try and try to find another way to make you see... to make you feel... to make you real again...
But it's all in vain isn't it? All for naught...
Lie next to me... feel me... taste me... but it's always the same end...
I fall... I am the scapegoat... You drift away like smoke...
So I light a flame and let it breathe... try to burn away my shame... my ignorance...
Wishing I could hide beneath the waters falling from my eyes...
Wishing it would wash it all away... wash me away...
I am the sacrificial lamb... Loving you's not enough...
I wish I knew your secret.

Author's Note

rambling... Have at it.