Needs

It was so good; we were so good

But something happened; it ended.

Days passed, weeks, months... its unbearable

Then you call, mixed emotions rise

 

We talk, you tell me that you know

about him.  I'm the one who doesn't know.

You don't believe me - there was never

anything there.  It's all lies.

 

So many needs gnaw at me

Some new ones for illegals- first pot, im out.

Then cigarettes, i dont do that anymore.

Alcohol - guarded by the adults.

 

Suddenly, the ancient need comes back,

So long forgotten, I couldn't remember its power

Until now... its need gnawing at my insides

Asking, begging for me to shed my blood

 

A sweet nectar, so joyous in action

To watch the life pour out along with it

all that aching pain, feels so good.

I pick up the blade.... admire it....

 

NO!  I  WONT!!!!