The Bleach Fumes Made Me Write This

My hair is rainbow
And its every color that I'm not

Inside me
He's black
And white
And every shade of grey

He's the smell of mold
That clings to the shower corner
As the tears in my eyes
Mock the droplets from the shower head

He's the sound of high heels
Clicking on the pavement
On their way to work
While their husband f***s her secretary

He's black
And white
And every shade of Grey
To make up for all the colors
He will never be

And if you're wondering who "He" is
"He" lives inside me
In my gastrointestinal tract to be exact

He likes to mess everything up
And make me nervous all the time
He likes to make me tap my pencil on my desk
Over and over
In attempt to free
Some of the buildup
Of nervousness
That he makes in my stomach

He's black
And white
And every shade of grey
Unlike my rainbow hair

And with each time
I plaster itchy bleach
All over my hair
So I can make it a rainbow
It's like me saying
"F**k you, I can be a rainbow if I want"

And my hair
As insane as it may be
Is the only sane part about me

He's black
And white
And all sorts of grey
And I feel that way inside too

I feel like the mold in the corner of my shower
I feel like the high heels clicking on the pavement
I feel like I caught my husband
F*****g my secretary
And I shoved my little red high heels
Up his sorry cheating a*s


My hair
Is the last grasp
Of who I am

I can't be who I am anymore
Because I know she's almost dead

I was 7, one year
And when I was 7
I went to the beach
In a huge purple sun hat
Sparkly sneakers
Purple leg warmers
Neon yellow sunglasses

I was the most beautiful girl in the world
Because I had not one care what anyone would think
I loved what I was wearing
And I loved who I was

And now
My hair
Is the last remainder of 7 year old me
My last grasp at keeping who I am

So I slather bleach
Over and over
Making my hair into a rainbow

This ugly world
Has not only made him
Black
And white
And all shades of grey

But its made all of me
Black
And white
And all shades of grey

My hair is a rainbow
And its every color that I'm not