Confused

Caught between two

Do I go on burying myself in this hole,
But as I do, I lose more and more control.
I'm going faster now as deeper I fall,
In the end, I'll be on my knees and made to crawl.

Have I made a mistake, I should have waited,
But its just that, the waiting I truly hated.
The questions explode violently in my mind,
And what might have been, burns a hole painfully deep inside.

Maybe giving man emotions, is Gods curse on us all,
He laughs, when in a rage my fists leave blood on the wall.
Because to be torn between two, feels like torture so cruel,
As a lit match is thrown, after I've been soaked in fuel.

My mind aches, heart pains and my soul is now shredded,
The path I'm on, I no longer know where it's headed.
I want it to end, the heartache and pain to stop,
The level of heart wrenching emotions inside to drop.

I've made a hole, with no hope of getting out,
Stuck here forever, that I have no doubt.
Forever pondering what could have been,
Wishing that maybe there was an exit, that couldn't be seen.

Reviews

[duff]

Circumstances depending can bury us without hope or an available breath. Sometimes we can dig our way out and sometimes it feels like the dirt keeps piling on. I think many of us have been here. Other variables such as alcohol and drugs may play a part in burying us further. That dark hole is daunting but one day hopefully that light shines through. Provocative material.

[Lykos]

That it can. There's certainly a lot life can put on you to push you down further. Best to shake it off and reach a hand out and hopefully someone will grab it.
Thanks for the review. Much appreciated!!

[CC]

I enjoyed this!

Interesting that you end up feeling as if you're in a hole, "wishing that maybe there was an exit, that couldn't be seen." because all holes DO have an exit...up.

I'm not sure if it was intentional but reminds me of the human tendency to get so absorbed in our surroundings/experiences we don't notice the obvious solution that any objective observer could spot.

Thanks for the read!

[Lykos]

Some holes are so deep, you either need a helping hand or a ladder.

I try to write poems which can be taken in different ways from someone else's point of view. I was writing it with two completely different scenarios about life. Can take it either way.

Thank you very much for your review. I appreciate it