My Humanity

I feel less, and less human. Most of the time I don't even feel like a man. I cannot conform to what people want me to be, even when that ment sacrificing a chance to be loved.

 

For this I try not to cry

For this I try not to bleed

In your light, I see my reflection

In your eyes, I see my cursed life

Now I know what I am to say

Now I know what I am

Certainly it’s not a man

 

To be a man

To be a man is to be aggressive

To be a man is to not be a coward

To be a man is to destroy

To be a man is to be selfish

To be a man is to dominate

To be a man, I must be not

 

My alienistic views are forsaken

I have too much fear in your light

I am not everyone else

I am not even the being you see

I am not even sure if I am human

I cannot contend with anyone

Certainly I can’t stand in front of you

 

To be human

To be human is to accept mistakes

To be human is to show compassion

To be human is to be alive inside

To be human is comprehending love

To be human is to be loved

To be human, I must be not

 

I know now what I am

But I know I am this alone

And this is my pain

And this is my life

I seek no self-pleasure

My happiness can only make me weak

And happiness is humanity

Reviews

[Que]

This was certainly one of my morbid pleasures to read. I can see there is sorrow in it, of this I am sure. But, correct me if I'm wrong, I see as well a deeper sense of pride in knowing that although you may not be like all other men you are glad to be what you believe to be the right sort of person. Also, I thought, when I read the last two lines of the last stanza, that you must not be human if it's happiness you have not and it's happiness you believe to make weak. I, for one, am a believer in happiess and am constantly so, be it my own downfall.

~Que

[Siddartha Beth Pierce]

Intriquing concepts on what it is to be both human and a man...this piece pulls at my heartstrings. There is a deep seated sense of longing to find oneself expressed it seems to me and at the same time a seemingly ambivalence about that search as well. Nice write. Thank you.
Siddartha

[Adela Muresan]

How well you separate the man with the superior intellect, from the mob.

I love the fact that you put humanity above all � because it is that, not intelligence that separates us from plain animals.

***** Poem.

A.M.

[Angel Bird]

A breathtaking piece by its great poetry, and its deep essence.

Your lines definitely deeply impress me with the power they have to make the reader feel your desperation in the search of your own self, to find who you really are deep down within yourself ...

Excellent write! Kudos!

[Michael X]

james, I really enjoyed this writing- there is an eneormous ammount of delving properties that create
an encircling feature encapsulating general humanistic insight reflecting in oppostites what it means
to be submersed into and at the same time finding the way things are seen at first sight aren't necessarily
the way things acually are .. becuse too many times people are quick to jump to conclusion to fit there own

will and shape the environment of circumstance according to the way they see fit vs. searching for
a means to harmonize that which is already in balanced proportion.. its mostly a take situation and all
one can really do is ponder sometimes.. i really enjoyed the way your brought the terms under artful
examination.. justified by form and dimension ..the pinnicle axis "My alienistic views are forsaken"...

[Poeticpiers]

I follow your train of thought.I tend to agree with your premises. You present it in poetic prose but you let yourself down by posting before spell checking and editing.