bleed

unedited poem I typed

dying ,
Withering away .
Every part of me disintegrating into specks of nothingness .
The cold wind blows me through all of the city that broke my once beating heart , the city that made me who I am , the city that tore me apart .
I'm like humans in many ways , but part of me is from somewhere else .
I have beauty , a pure heart , but on my brain they casted a spell .
Trying to take me , break me and shape me into someone new .
Speaking of the one , I really thought it was you.
But another flower caught your eyes , took you by surprise and with that daisy , you wanted to bloom.
Not a dying rose like me , you wanted someone new .
Someone that in your eyes you saw beautiful , used to be me .
There used to be an us , used to be a we .
I've cried enough tears to fill up the sea, so if we ever have a drought , just call me.
My mind is so strong yet my heart is so weak .
Traumatized by the pain I can't even speak .
What have I done to deserve this feeling ?
My hearts seems to be sinking .
It's my personality the pain is killing .
it's my livers turn while drinking .
take me away, I beg god while I'm on my knees.
But too , with him , I feel as if hes never pleased .
I'm not good enough for anyone . Not mother , not dad .
Not grandma , not my siblings , why am I so sad ?
No longer asking why these things happen to me , i just let them move along .
I know I'm pushing through life doing nobody wrong .
I'm glad I killed the old me , so far away from strong .
This pain makes my heart swell.
tell me I'll make it to heaven , not hell.
Beep... beep ... beep ...
I hear the sounds in my head .
facing my shell , hoping I am dead .
I grabbed my icy hand and pressed a kiss against my cheek .
For the first time in a long time , my shell decided to speak .
"Goodbye beautiful rose , its time for me to leave .
It's time for you to live a new life , with happiness you see ?
I'm sorry to say but no one else will love you as much as me .
Humans are very cruel and mean , but just stay yourself and soon you'll be .
Gods love is key , I'm the past you , you're the brand new me . "

Reviews

[Zoya]

That's a heartfelt confession. Something quite personal I suppose. No doubt people change. They bring about further changes in their lives...giving up on someone, establishing a new relationship with someone, sometimes for no valid reason at all. But that's how life is. As it is, change is the only constant. And yes, God's love is the key.
I liked how you penned down your emotions and had the courage to share them with us. Kudos to you. Keep writing!