scars running red

I roll up my sleeves

because no one believes

the pain I've been through

isn't just a fantasy

 

The scars have healed

with faint indentation

it isn't my imagination

 

the experiments i have done

the shameless cutting was just a run

to be away from the hell im living

 

see the scars running down my arm

imagining that every single one was bleeding

dripping down to the floor

 

they have names

the names of pain

the names of hurt

the memories of suffering just left

 

the secrets held

I wish it was just celled

 you would be compelled

with the number

endlessly neverending

 

one after another

today will be a new yesterday

counting the days

the days you don't love her

it is replusive

 

you slither through my veins

i am sick

i am not ill

you are the cause

 

i wander through the memories

the memories on my wrist

do you see them?

 

you don't care

you wouldn't dare

your emotion is bare

 

the happy times are gone

left in the dust

trying was a bust

 

I am waiting

the day you are done

 

gone

it will fall apart

i will fall into the pattern again

 

the mess you have made

you won't forget

nor regret

 

my scars will bleed red again  

 

I will slip into the dark

once more

to be unseen 

forgotten in the past

 

sitting in the corner

no one will come again

i will not beg

 

this mess is never cleaned up

the stains of red on the white carpet

down the hall

trailing behind me

my secret pleasure

 

I roll up my sleeves

because no one believes

in me

in my life

no one appreciates

the being of me

 

I am just human

with a reunion to never forget

it is not fantasy

just a shadow that trails

behind me as a jacket

 

it is just an indentation

but not my imagination

 that never will you see

 

 

 

Author's Note

it's a little rough but what do you think??

Reviews

[Amber Lily]

Very good! I like your writing I'm glad your starting back up again :) It gave a very dark feeling, one that I remember all too well. I love how real it felt.

[Laura Maidah]

That's amazing.

[Perfect Mistake]

Me gusta! Also i appreciate you and totally will for a long time. Anyway good job on this :3