I wish I could stop comparing myself

A poem of all the reasons Im sad.

I can't stop comparing myself to others, I've always done it,
It started with small things,
Now all I do is compare myself to others,
Every time I look at myself, I see how far behind I am.
I'm a third wheel to my friends,
My photography sucks,
I'm not really good at anything.
I wish I could be like my friends who have happy relationships.
I wish I was great at photography & that people actually liked it.
I know I'll never measure up, so I've become a slacker.
I know that no matter how "well" I seem to be doing, that I'll always find a way to f*ck up.
I look at others and say to myself, I wish I was as pretty as she is; I wish I was as tall as he is, and I wish I was as cool as they are.
I know that no matter what I do I'm stuck as me, that's why I became Maysin.
I grew confidence, I tried to better myself, yet here I am still stuck as plain old helpless Autumn.
Maysin is who I want to be, she is who I am, she's everything I wished I was as a kid.
Maysin is who I've become, she is all of my past experiences, she is everything I've learned.
She is me; I took my power back & gave myself a voice to speak up and speak out. She is my confidence.
Even though she is who I am, I still can't help but feel like I am still a weak nobody who is bad at everything.