delusional tryna be edgy self righteous a*****e speaks

this is not a poem, nor a stage play...written for me.

Do you ever think about the what's above our world
The lack of knowledge only serves
To widen our imagination
Therefore
God or Gods
Stand atop
A fragile line
But due to the stagnation of such universe
That line will never break
Unless one of us
Steps outside these bonds

To be honest
I wish I could be the one
To step out
And reveal to everyone
The truth about our lives
And be the hero that enlightened us all
But my selfishness
And my senseless hatred for this world
Stops me every time I think of doing something
For the best of us all
See
Where you see God and Gods and Demons
I see a bigger purpose for me and for me only
See
I'm no better than you
I'm as idiotic as you
Just in a different way
I feel our kind
Is a dishonour to mother nature
A corrupted puzzle piece that fits
But emits an aura of destruction across the board
Staunching everything around until nothing breathes
-Death-

I feel I should live for something bigger than my species
Since that one is not even living for itself anymore
Does it not sound like self righteous delusion?
But does not everything feel like a delusion
When we're dealing with something we can't see or feel?
Do you have any right to judge me?
Let's say I decide to
"Punish those who harm our planet"
Let's say I pick up that machine gun and go outside and start shooting every single person I come across
Would you have any right to judge me?
Morals?
What is good and what is evil?
This question becomes purely rhetorical when we live in this kind of world
I'm more inclined to say that there is no good and/or evil
Until a creature that's human
Yet bigger than us
-A super intelligence that's fully knowledgeable of what humans are-
Comes and clears the fog of vagueness across those concepts
But that's a subject for another time
There are actions
And there are consequences
There are laws
And there are trials
The later created by the ideals some humans thought it would be safer to follow
But
Why should I be forced to follow those ideals?
Power of the majority?
Then
I am not free
Then
Wait
Were we not born free in the wild naked of all restriction?
Were I to go back to that state
And kill this person
I'd be addressed as a villain
A criminal
A bad person
No matter what my reasons were
But since I don't live within your system
Those labels would mean nothing to me
And I'd fight till the end
I'd die fighting for what I believe in
While many of those lying on the ground
Would meaninglessly die fighting for something the majority believed in
What I'm trying to say is
That monster, and also those laws, would be the winners
You, as individuals, and the system you trust, would be the losers
I may be vague
But
Do you see it?
No good
No evil
Just belief
I'm starting to think that's the meaning of life
What you believe in
And the strength of that belief
How would it be
A world where everyone lived for their individual beliefs
Oh
Anarchy?
It's bad?
How bad?
Oh...
Okay...
Well nevermind that then
Bye