everyone deserves

not my best, just something I whipped up

they say i should be happy

that getting a new dad is good

they dont understand

they dont know him

they say hes great

kind

gentle

sweet

but thats a mask

a mask he puts on for them

and takes off for me

they say i should love him

that he deserves it

but i will give him what he deserves

and its not love

but maybe its fair

maybe he is giving me what he thinks i deserve

maybe he doesnt think i deserve love

but everyone deserves love

 there is nothing either of us could ever do 

that changes that

we deserve to be held when we are sad

not ignored

we deserve to feel safe in our own towns

in our own homes

we deserve to be fed 

to have food every day

we deserve so much more than we have

no matter how much he hurts me

no matter how hard he tries to rip me apart

i dont deserve it

and neither does he