3/7/2016 3:06 am

I feel so lonely
And lost
Like I'm drifting
Not forward
Not floating
But drifting
Effort fueled drifting
And the balance
That my mother
Always speaks of
Is never going
To find me
Or I it
All I have
Are depressive ramblings
That I scrawl out
On wrinkled paper
That reminds me
Of my
Cellulite-ridden thighs
That cling to
My bony body
That isn't quite
So bony anymore
As I light up
Another cigarette
And wish wish wish
So intensely
That I ceased
To exist
And that my soul
Would be pardoned
From this torturous world
That I
No longer
Want to be a part of
Dear Universe,
Please excuse me