Broken Friendship

What I felt/wrote last night :/

Is everything that we've gone through mean anything to you now?

We've been friends for almost a year,

sharing everything so long ago.

Helping each other through horrible times.

 

Both very sick,

in the low 100's or below.

So close to dying.

Scared for the next day to come.

 

There for each other from boy problems to family problems.

Being shoulders to cry on for the other.

Having sleepovers just for the hell of it,

so many fun memories both at your house and mine.

 

'Best Friend' is only a memory to you now.

You say you don't trust me,

that i'm not your best friend anymore.

Wondering what I did wrong to deserve that.

Knowing that without trust there isnt a friendship.

 

Saying yourself I didn't do anything wrong,

but then again feeling that's a cover-up.

We used to be so close,

just like sisters.

Having so much in common that it was scary but comforting.

 

Walking home from school in the spring,

having long talks late at night about deep things.

Sharing things that we haven't shared with anyone else.

 

Wanting that friendship back but feeling it won't be the same.

I miss what we had, I miss how I was towards you.

We both have stabbed each other in the backs,

but then again all friendships aren't perfect.

 

You say that nothing will change between us,

that we'll still be biffles (best friends for life).

Things will change now, in reality we won't be biffles anymore.

For the fact that you don't trust me anymore makes everything change.

It hurts knowing that things are this way now,

the fact that you were my best friend who knew me the most,

who I connected with deeper than any friend I had.

You knew the real me, how I felt and you didn't judge me for that.

Telling you everything, trusting you without a doubt. Knowing we would

be best friends until we grew old.

 

At one point....you felt the same way towards me.

Where that feeling went, I have no clue.

Author's Note

Should I change anything?...