Question

Innumerable questions to life

I miss that heating up of my cheeks,
Those squeals of delight and eeks.
Butterflies flooding my stomach,
Shallow, fast breaths, I did suck.
Few days of pleasure,engulfed by pain,
Failure after failure, efforts in vain.
No longer sad, but numb,
Don't know how long it'll take me to succumb.
Falling flat over and over again,
But the question still remains....