Suicide Letter

Don't worry, I haven't killed myself yet.

I just wanna fall to the floor bleeding out my throat
I don't any more pain
I want to be a stain on the floor
I don't want to live
I want to swan dive off a building
The only I enjoy life is when I'm high
Every other day my life is rife with tears
The only clear reason for living is not to hurt my ex best friend
Someone send her to me I want to see her
But she'll steer clear of me cause she prefers people it's easier to be with
I don't see why
I just want to die
I'm not flying with angels cause I hate god
He gave me a life where happiness doesn't exist and love fades
Someone save me from this existence
I'm alone this isn't fun
I'm so close to being done
I don't even enjoy my phone anymore
I've sunk to the ground in tears so many times
The sound of me crying must be annoying to my neighbors
The flavor on my tongue is ash
My flashbacks have soured like milk
Memories that used to feel like silk are now rough and cut me
I see her so clearly especially from when we first met
Why did you leave me alone best friend
This didn't help I still want to die why will you spend time with them but not me
I can't believe you just take the easy route like this
Especially after five years
I want to as well
Just jump off a bridge fill a car with carbon dioxide slit my throat hang a rope around it I don't care
Everything's unfair these days
I want to die

Author's Note

Criticism is always welcome.