Ravaged

Some things just follow you forever. It's hard to understand if you've never been there yourself. I write my best when I'm at my worst, hope you enjoy.

Betrayed,
Left alone;
Wondering why,
Asking what have I done.

What
Did I do
To deserve this,
To be desolated so young?

How
Could I have
Been so utterly stupid,
To have given you everything?

You
Said forever
And forever is what
I wanted to believe.

When
You pushed,
Pleading and promising,
I spread and let you in.

Stolen,
Was a part
Of me that I can
Never take back again.

Shattered,
Was my heart,
So fragile and left
In your careless hands.

Will
I ever be
The same girl again,
or is this it, the end?

Am
I stuck here,
Being the girl you
Rallied for me to become?

Gone
Is the girl
Who had her
Virtue and heart intact

Here
Is the girl
Who gave it all
But got only pain in return.

Never
Would I have
Asked for this, or
Asked for a guy like you.

Perfect
Is what I thought
You were for me but now
I see past the lies and into the truth.

Hurt
Is the ways your
Lies made me feel inside,
The way they ripped me apart.

Terrified
Is the way you
Made me feel when you
Took what I didn't want to give.

Torn
Is the way you
Left me bleeding
After you'd had your fun.

Broken
Is the way you
Discarded me when
A better deal came along.

Lost
Is the way I
Didn't know what
To do or where to turn.

Love
Is the word
You used to get what
You wanted from me in return.

That
Word is now
A word of hatred
And sorrow beyond all words.

Hatred
Is a word I use
To describe how I feel
When I look at the girl in the mirror.

Mirror
Is a word that
Shows me that I've
Become who I don't want to be.

W***e
Is a word that
I believe describes me
And all that you made me to be.

Blame
Is a word I
Believe should be reserved
Solely for you, instead of for me.

Author's Note

Don't read if you don't want something real.

Reviews

[Sourav]

Very honest and open poem. You've written it very nicely... it flows wonderfully. Sad one but sometimes painful past provides us the power of become wiser. I hope you'll be a much positive and cheerful person in the future.

[Pól]

nice- would drop the "for" in last line

[A. Amos]

This is deep and yet mesmerizing all our life we seek for love, sometimes even in a crowd of people wno claim they love us we are alone...i was lost in your poetry. Thought provoking and connecting directly with soul. You writing is pure magic...

[Ariell Cranor (Mispeled Mermaid)]

Thank you so much... That means a lot.

[A. Amos]

You're most welcome