Regret

To my past, present and future self

Everything that happened didn't happen because of a purpose,

it happened because it had to happen.

And no matter how much you want to make time stop - to prevent something bad from happening -

you can't.

You are merely a part of the universe that you happened to step into.

Because of your will to live.

The will to resist death, or to be apart from it at least.

And in that process of resisting death, you wish you were dead because of your powerlessness

to protect what was the most precious thing in your life - or so you thought it was.

And then again, maybe not God or maybe God, has a different plan for you.

You were powerless because you had to be. To know how it feels to be powerless and then wanting to strive.

You are powerless because you are not God. You are powerless because you care.

And you will not stop caring, not until the last breath of yours.

Because that is human's nature - to care. It may be not to care for love but it will be for something.

Because you have to. In a world where you don't care for something you stop moving.

You stop evolving into something different - you miss out on the possiblity of being something more.

You can't go back, no matter how much you want to. That is my regret.