I now understand

I now understand, its all clear

The truth even though bleak it makes sense

As hurtful to it may be to me its the truth

Ive been wrong my whole life, nothing has prepared me for this

The sense the feel the embrace is just something i will never be

What you want is something i am not so i will muster alone

Scared of the facts but insured by the reality

I will keep my tears to my self and my worries alone

Cause in all honestly i am something you dont want

I now understand

May the insanity of my inner insecure thoughts please not kill me.